Wednesday, January 11, 2006

 

Had a go at this test I spotted here. Not sure i agree with it all but there were moments it was eerily recognisable. You may think that because i am once again messing about on the internet doing quizzes that i am avoiding revision for a forthcoming exam...you would be right.

Free personality analysis from ColorQuiz.com.Generated on Wed Jan 11 04:29:04 2006.

Your Existing Situation
Active, but feels that insufficient progress or reward is being made for the effort exerted. Always

Your Stress Sources
Wants to overcome a feeling of emptiness and of separation from others. Believes that life still has far more to offer and that she may miss her share of experiences if she fails to make the best use of every opportunity. She therefore pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity and commits herself deeply and readily. Feels herself to be completely competent in any field in which she engages, and can sometimes be considered by others to be interfering or meddlesome.

the first line actually sums up how i'm feeling at the moment pretty well and the second line is how i view life all the time. Not so sure about the last line, although i may be considered as intefering or meddlesome (i hope not) i am more known for the fact that i don't think i am competent at anything and have a deeply ingrained fear of imminent failure.

Your Restrained Characteristics
Remains emotionally unattached even when involved in a close relationship. mmmmmmmm possibly
Feels that she cannot do much about her existing problems and difficulties and that she must make the best of things as they are. true
Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity. you what? what does this mean? i wouldn't know.

Your Desired Objective
Wants interesting and exciting things to happen. who doesn't?
Able to make herself well-liked by her obvious interest and by the very openness of her charm. Over-imaginative and given to fantasy or day-dreaming. now this last one is so true!

Your Actual Problem
Has a fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants. yes that's true, ties in with fear of failure
This leads her to employ great personal charm in her dealings with others, hoping that this will make it easier for her to reach her objectives. mmmm possibly try to do this but i don't know if i can claim to have great personal charm.

Your Actual Problem #2
Seeks to avoid criticism and to prevent restriction of her freedom to act, and to decide for herself by the exercise of great personal charm in her dealings with others. first part true as to second part see above

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posted by Brianne 12:19 pm

Monday, January 09, 2006

 

first day of lectures of spring term. I spent an hour listening to weird sounds and tring to write them down. this means i spent an hour making pained faces and squeaking as i attempted to extract from my brain phonetic symbols and get to engage my ears to work. AND i would like to know how i am supposed to hear the difference to between two sounds and write the correct one if the difference doesn't exist in English!! Long ago my brain decided not to bother with this difference as it never heard it, there's no turning back now.

Slightly tired of asking and responding to the question "how was your xmas?" "what did you do for new year?" It feels like the start of the course when the questions "where do you come from?" and "what was your first degree in?" kept being asked. I am normally okay with this but today i was feeling very lethargic and socially inept. I think it's the january despondency which has settled over me and the usuual lethargy that is bound to descend when one hasn't been very active for three weeks. I am going to the gym now so hopefully that will shake me up and wake me up.

Also, having spent three weeks with a kitchen to myself I am really feeling pissed off with having to share kitchen space. Half a shelf in the fridge and a little cupboard space; squeezing past people to get to the sink/fridge/cooker. And it's always a complete mess, it's an utter s**t-hole. I know it's really stupid but it actually makes me feel down to think about another term ahead of me sharing a kitchen.

shut up Brianne. okay ignore post, sounds bitchy and complaining about stupid things. Actually i am glad to be back, ready to get into the more practical side of my course and at Easter i shall go on my first placement.

posted by Brianne 5:52 pm