Sunday, June 22, 2003

 

this evening i stood on the bridge in the rain and watched swallows winging freely through the sky...the clouds seemed near enough to touch and the rain was so soft and gentle on my face, everything was stil the rain sounded like rice being scattered on the floor (you know what that sounds like esther).

26th nov 2001...over a year has passed...................expectation and anticipation.....................what happens to missed opportunities? do we have them again? Looking at the application form i feel a little scared, am i right to be staying here? Maybe i should be making a fresh start elsewhere...why can't i have a sign? flaming letters appearing across the sky? no? not even a hot pocket? I feel a little emotionally drained today, blank.

I try to stretch my mind but i just get my body wrecked

why do i not notice when i stop listening?

posted by Brianne 10:29 pm

 

the application form has arrived and so now i must seriously face the horrifying truth that i must leave the safety of university and enter the workplace (slapped on the butt by the cruel hand of reality). doubts have raced through my mind today...will i get this job? will they even interview me? who am i to think that they will give me this job? What does God want me to do?

trust and patience


expectation and anticipation come to stay unexpectedly and will slip away quietly when i am not looking...

where do i find myself? i wasn't looking where i was going and may have got lost but i think i know this place...God catch me as i fall as on the day i finally listened...

posted by Brianne 7:26 pm

Wednesday, June 18, 2003

 

why can't people be truthful with each other? why do we let ourselves grow bitter rather than being open with each other? I know i have been guilty of this as well, letting things fester in my heart instead of being truthful about my feelings. Of course the truth can be painful...but then what will the consequences be if we are open and accepting of the truth? the truth may hurt but it can bring healing.

salt

posted by Brianne 7:34 pm

Tuesday, June 17, 2003

 

the sparrows fought over crumbs beneath my chair (i felt their wings beat against my leg!!!!) they were so beautiful (until they started fighting) and Esther said i was so easily pleased. It allowed me a moments distraction before i became lost in my thoughts again. I have things i need to sort out before i go to Guatemala, people i should talk to...can i delay until september when i return?

posted by Brianne 6:23 pm

Monday, June 16, 2003

 

i looked and i found

posted by Brianne 10:05 pm

 

brass or sponge?

posted by Brianne 10:04 pm

 

trust and patience

posted by Brianne 10:02 pm

 

...drowning....


..............let me...........

....forget for awhile.............


.....drifting in dreams.........




.......untouched.

posted by Brianne 10:01 pm

 

...remind me...

posted by Brianne 9:58 pm

 

...my enigma
sweet mystery
faceted and flawed

perfect imperfections...

posted by Brianne 9:57 pm

 

...where we said our goodbyes...

posted by Brianne 6:20 pm

 

i hate to admit it but i kinda had fun at work today, laughing over militancy and blondness and esther (because it is so easy to laugh at her...hee hee hee, only joking darling!!! don't hurt me o charging rhinocerous)...................aaaaaaahhhhhhhhh run away.....................................................................

.....................*am i safe?...has she spotted me?....*....................................

keep back, i have a spoon and i am not afraid to use it!!! in fact i have a filing cabinet and several postgrad certificates with which i can and will inflict some really nasty papercuts...

why am i in such a silly mood today????

posted by Brianne 6:19 pm