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Thursday, July 10, 2003

I'm sitting in flat W26 all alone on my last night at Keele. The flat is bare and dusty and every sound echoes around me. It is pitch black outside there are no lights from other blocks twinkling back at me. I am all packed up and i am sad. I seem to have a heavy weight on my heart and no matter how i look at it and prod it it doesn't seem to want to move. Where did all the time go? I have so many memories but is there really three years worth? Arriving at Hawthorns, sitting alone in my room crying thinking i must be the only person feeling homesick hating myself for my weakness. So a bad start but things changed and i met some wonderful people and i love you all so much wherever you are now and i am gonna miss you like crazy. I will miss the laughter, the blondness, the anger, tears, walks to keele service station, pianothons, coffee on the sofa, late night trips to tescos, madly dancing through the flat to the tune of the dirty dancing soundtrack.....it's been fun and come september a new era shall begin and we will make some new memories. But it wont be the same and i know that's a good thing. I hate that this is the end but i know it's time to move on and there is a whole world out there full of opportunities (why am i staying in stoke?).

See ya on the other side ;)

posted by Brianne 10:17 pm

Wednesday, July 09, 2003

Yesterday i graduated and it finally sank in that we are leaving...I don't want to go. I have lots of happy memories (and some not so happy ones) and i met wonderful people (and some crazy people - not naming any names esther).

I am going to hold off entering the big wide world by going to costa rica for the summer but how long can i hold off that inevitable slap on the butt by the big hand of reality? Will it be as soon as i step off that plane in gatwick? when i move into a new home (without a job to pay for the rent), or when i start looking for work? Who knows, for now i shall enjoy today (preparations for grad ball) and ignore thursday knocking at the door.

posted by Brianne 9:28 am

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